I have always considered myself a Christian despite what i believe. I don’t believe in god and while i do believe a guy named Jesus did exist at some point and that he may or may not have had a great number of followers i don’t think he was the son of any greater power. I believe in science and the existence of the soul so for the most part i guess that makes me an atheist.
So why do i call myself a Christian if i don’t believe in these fundamental things in Christianity? Well there is a simple reason for it really. I was born and baptized into the Christian belief, i was Confirmed in the Christian belief and for the most part i can somewhat agree with the bibles teachings. That is, not to kill, not to cheat on your wife, not to steal, be kind and respectful to those around you and so on.
I also believe that the bible has more science in it than most Christians would like to believe. Like biology and how sex actually ain’t a bad thing and how abstinence is something the bible suggest bus also goes against itself and says is unhealthy.
All in all the bible is confusing as hell but its up to each and everyone to see it in their own way. I believe at some point it won’t be that different from person to person anyway. It will be much the same as we expand our ever increasing knowledge of things in the world.
What for me comes higher than any it though, is the existence of a balance. The more i actually take a step back to look at the picture as a whole i see that there is a balance between things around us. Most of us have seen these balances as well, they just don’t think that much about them, like life and death, rich and poor, healthy and sick, good and bad and the one that really displays things more clearly than any other; matter vs anti-matter.
Anti-matter is an odd thing actually. Its the opposite of what we are and while we may not be aware of it, its one of the few things that we all know about quantum physics. Everyone has heard about Einsteins theory of relativity and therein the all to famous E=MC2. Although few actually know what they stand for. The E stands for Energy the M is Mass and the C is the speed of light in a vacuum (from the Latin Celeritas meaning speed or swiftness)
Beyond this i don’t know much more than the average person. I have never been much of a math expert, i can do basic math at pretty fast speed (faster than most my age as they tend to resort to the calculator) but more advanced stuff beyond Pythagoras equation about triangles i get lost. All i have is a very basic understanding of physics and the mechanics behind it. i don’t know the math but i can make most people understand the basic behind it if they allow me time to explain.
So how does religion fit into all this? well it really doesn’t fit into it other than like Einstein said:
“Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.”
Religion to me is the pursuit of the spiritual existence and understanding of something beyond ourselves. Its not about some higher deity or power. As odd as it perhaps may seem, i believe the bible to be a creation of geniuses without witt. What leads me to say that is what is written but also the age it came from. I see the bible as a coverup for our not so bright ancestors who could never have had a chance of discovering the atom and unleashing its properties like we do in say nuclear plants. They would have feared it as something unknown to them and tried to get away from it. For some reason the bible acts sort of as a protection of sorts against this. It allows them to believe in something powerful without thinking that it has to be something to fear (at least not feared as it would otherwise have been. fear of god is better than fear of the unknown in this case)
How it came about to be this way i don’t know. perhaps the human potential itself acted in a way that we created a protective barrier we could later on be able to see through for what it was but never before it was time or perhaps it was simply really bright minds of their age that could not reveal themselves for what they where out of fear for their own lives for what they knew. After all throughout the ages there have been prodigies in all kinds of stuff. Mozart was a gifted musician at an early age, Einstein was a gifted physician and many others in similar situations. I wouldn’t doubt this to be a truth in itself. In any case we are in our age at a state where we are starting to see through the barrier. Not everywhere and not all of us just yet but in the near future.
personally i hope that most people get to see science as the governing force of the universe btu that they also start to see that their souls are the governing force of their belief in a better world. Religion is the belief in something greater than ourselves and can’t this be a way to just that?
